If Only

I may be a nice guy,

But, if only...

My pockets were a bit deeper,

For more things to buy.

If only, I was tall,

To make the ladies fall.

A better looking lad,

A sexier tad.

Knew to pick the right label,

To be a bit more fashionable.

Had a little more confidence,

Not in doubt every instance.

Showed enough persistance,

Till my desires got acceptance.

If only, I had more intelligence,

Like I knew the purpose of existence.

Uttered lenghty sentences,

Indifferent to your interferences.

Spoke up more against nonsense,

Rather than showing tolerance.

If only, I wasn't afraid of violence,

Irrespective of the consequence.

Then...

Well then, 

I might have been a complete a**hole.

So I am glad the way I am,

Thank you God, this soul 

needs nothing more.

Haiku#8 - Nobody 

Was a nobody.

Back to being a nobody

with some memories.

Haiku#9 - Nothing 

Nothing here is yours

You are only borrowing

Time, love, life itself.

Haiku#6 - Prayer 

I pray for souls that

leave me behind; the dead and 

the living as well. 

Haiku#7 - Light 

I have no fear when

You walk in the dark with me,

'Cause You are the light.

Haiku 3 to 5

#3 - Sailor 

Oceans can't be tamed,

Yet I have to sail the ship;

Take me down with her. 

#4 - Bridge 

You were my river,

For you I was just a bridge,

Connecting two souls. 

#5 - Fragrance 

Flowery fragrance,

You don't need any perfume.

Will you fade away?

Haiku#2 - Bench

The same garden bench,
Waiting for someone you knew.
But lovers forget.

Rains - My first haiku

Under the blessed rains,

Looking happy, hiding tears,

Facing storms once more.

Pretend

Let's play a game of pretend,

Let's call you my "good friend".

Now tell me you love me,

Show me how much you care,

Lay all your secrets bare.

Make me fall for you,

A free fall with no end.

Then, I let you go,

To see if you turn back on the bend,

Or disappear forever, 

Making no amends.

It's a funny game,

But that's how you know,

Who to let go,

And on who to depend.

Silence

Silence can be heartbreaking,

Silence can be heartwarming.

It can be painful

Or peaceful.

It can be too loud, deafening your ears,

Or a place where you connect with God after years.

Silence can be golden, it can help you rise,

Or your biggest downfall, ask the wise.

It may be a single moment that feels like an eternity,

While a certain silence does go to infinity.

So keep silent for things to mend,

But break the silence before the end,

Before it's too late.

Facing my demons

I see nothing,
I am blind.
I feel nothing,
Brutal and unkind.
I am a ball of raging fire,
Raring to go,
At the person in front of you,
Who may not have a clue.

I do not discriminate,
Between the young and old,
Between men and women,
Between family and friends,
Not even between mothers and others.
A demon behind closed doors,
I am free of all relationships,
Ready to end all of yours.
Free-flowing like an untamed river,
I can make their blood run cold,
And their spines shiver.

Whether you are poor or rich,
I never charge a fee.
But I will be your end too,
If you don't stop me.
I am your end from the start,
To kill my creator slowly is my art.
Either you abandon me,
Or see me become quite a thorn,
You will wish I was never born.

With me, you will always be alone,
Without sleep, always awake,
My tongue is deadlier than fangs of a snake,
Spitting venom with so much zeal,
Causing wounds that never heal,
Ripping apart hearts of steel.

I can be faced by few,
And if I don't tell you,
You will never be able to figure,
That I am the anger...
Inside you.

Toxic

I looked for beauty in your damaged soul,
So I know it's my fault too, I don't blame you whole.
Though that won't stop us from moving apart,
I won't be the one applying bandages to your hollow heart,
Or walk you home when you are drunk and out of control,
By the time you realise it, I would be back in the foxhole.
Coz I have realised, you need some serious med,
And I'm better off sleeping on a single bed.
No strings attached was supposed to be easy,
Yet it kept my mind way too busy,
How did we end up with so much jealousy?
You have no idea how crazy you sound,
While your craving for attention knows no bounds,
The world is not enough to be your playground.
It all looks cool in the movies but reality bites,
All I want is to get that image out of my sight,
To the core it makes me sick,
This thing we have is nothing but toxic.